I’ve always been a pragmatic person. Rarely have I made a rash decision and when I did – well I now have beautiful grandchildren to show for it.
My thoughts, my choices are always conscientious. people don’t understand that. When someone asks me if I want a drink I say “no you’ll have to take my chip if you give me that drink”. I’ve never been a member of any anonymous group (well except when I worked on the 976 line in the 80s). I’ve never done Alcoholics Anonymous or anything of that nature, not because I never needed it but because I make a conscientious decision. But people don’t understand conscientious decisions. They understand the chips, they understand Alcoholics Anonymous, they understand steps but they don’t understand doing it on your own. “What do you mean you don’t want to glass of wine?” Or “I bet you want a beer after the day you had”! “You should really smoke weed in order to help your knees feel better.”
No thank you I never cared for a glass of wine. I never liked the taste of beer and I smoked enough weed in the 80s to know that it really just puts me to sleep.
I actually stopped smoking weed at one point because it became more expensive for one joint then for a whole pack of cigarettes. I could not process that logic, why would I spend a dollar (yes a dollar) on one joint when I could buy 20 cigarettes for that same dollar?! Made absolutely no sense to me whatsoever. And alcohol, while alcohol and I were friends for a while, we’re sad friends. I’m not a happy drunk though some may disagree because I was always smart enough to leave before that happy wore off and the sad came in. I’m a sad drunk. I cry, I weep, I wish for better things. And drugs well I did a lot of drugs in the 80s.
I went to a reunion of friends about 10 years ago and they were all talking about these great parties that we went to and I couldn’t remember any of them and my friend Sam says to me “Adrienne these were all at your house”!
I don’t like not being in control of myself, my circumstances, my surroundings. I’m a little bit of a type A personality. And I know now that I like to remember. I love my memories. I really wish I had more of them. I’m glad I have friends to remind me of them.
Now, if only I could do the same with potato chips……………………………………..
Welcome back . If you find the cure to food addiction please share .
If Dr. Phil couldn’t help us I don’t know who can!
Come on you’re a survivor and don’t need Dr Phil..lol
Adrienne,
We’ve been friends for many years.. I know I have many wonderful memories of our times together. Of course our lives have changed ( for the better for the most part lol) and we don’t spend as much time as I’d like.. Life is a jorney and you’ve had some bumpy roads, but you’ve cured all your ailments. So what if you can’t control potato chips.. start with a half bag and gradually less and less.. consider what you did early on and be proud of all you’ve accomplished.
You have a beautiful, loving family ! Tell people that’s your glass of wine
Love you my friend!
Love this Adrienne!!!
Love this! Sometimes the rash decisions lead to the best “consequences” like pretty grandbabies. As one who has offered you a drink I can say with total confidence that you are fun as hell without one. And yes people understand the 12 steps more than they understand concrete decisions.