I’m wondering if I have gone too public with this blog.
Is it no longer a place where I can speak freely and openly.
Is it not the proper forum to say things like, neither of my children thought to get me a gift for Christmas. Or that my daughter once again yelled at me for doing something as simple as changing the baby’s tights from black to something more festive. Or that my family is begrudgingly allowing me to cook Christmas dinner, while half of them would rather go to Home Town Buffet and the other wishes I would just disappear.
Perhaps this isn’t the forum for this discussion. Perhaps there is no proper place for this other than a therapists couch.
Some times I wish I was a drinker.
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Sorry you’re having a rough day Adrienne. Hope your family comes around to spirit of the holidays and shows you some appreciation before the day’s over. Hang in there.
Adrienne, I’m so sorry. I hope your day has gotten better. You deserve more than that. Merry Christmas.
Steph
NO THIS IS NOT TOO PUBLIC…this is a perfect place to vent.at least here you can find out that you are not the only one with kids that are utterly ungrateful. I believe ALL kids go through this. I have had people tell me “oh no, I never hated my parents or disrespected them”. I think that is hooey. I thought my parents were terrible (for no good reason other than the word NO was in their vocabulary). I was in my late 20′s before I showed any appreciation or respect to them. I had my kids late in life, so by the time they were around, I could appreciate my parents for what they did. Kids nowdays have children so young, they still think the are smarter than us. They need a good strong dose of Jewish guilt
Oh Adrienne, I’m soooooooo sorry. I hope that you still are able to find some joy this season.
Your blog was very guarded and cryptic. It is clear that you need someone to whom you can talk, a blog is not the forum for it. Most churches have councilling services or groups, but, if that is out of the question look into the Yellow Pages. You do need to vent.
As I perused the little local newspaper (that arrives in the mail) I noticed an ad that informed about free grief sessions for those in need. I thought of you and how your Mother’s death has affected your thoughts. The sessions are being held at a large local church, I forget the denomination. Here in the “Bible Belt” any person can go and take advantage of free services such as this. Many people lose loved ones and are in personal need of inner healing.