Out of Body On My Mind

I have been dreading this day for a week.  I try not to think about it before Christmas, but once the last guest goes home on Christmas night, I turn morbid.

It happens every year.  This year, it only took mere moments after for me to snap off Taj’s head for the stupidest thing.  In under an hour I was a mess of tears, apologizing for being a bitch and explaining my mind set.

I thought maybe I could take some time from work and go away for a few days.  But this is a really busy time and I am supposed to baby sit the grand twins tomorrow night.  So I am stuck at home.

I couldn’t bring myself to go to the casino alone this year, so here I sit.  In front of my tv, in front of my computer.  Trying desperately to breathe.  Why can’t I breathe?

I miss you mommy.

Grandmas Girls

Comments

  1. Xo

    Holidays do that. Sending love your way.

  2. I really am so sorry for your loss. I thought she was a wonderful friend and I know she was a wonderful loving mother.

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